My Mental Health Journey: Embracing the “New Normal”

Reflections on a Year Without Blogging—It’s taken me over a year to create a new blog post, which might seem strange to me. Who fucking cares if I don’t post regularly? I don’t have millions of subscribers or fans waiting for my next update. I blog because I can, and it allows me to express myself

My Mental Health Struggles—From the past 1.5 years, I’ve been dealing with mental health issues. Despite having anxiety, depression, and OCD since 2021, I’ve recently started showing signs of bipolar too. My mom thinks that saying these things out loud makes me a fucking idiot myself. She’s worried that I’m asking for sympathy or empathy from others

I’ve tried various approaches to manage my anxiety, depression, and OCD, but none have been successful so far. Lately, I’ve been experiencing an ‘all-or-nothing’ approach, viewing situations as either completely black or white. While struggling to maintain my motivation during therapy, I’ve noticed some positive changes in my compulsions recently.

I’m feeling tired of the medications I’ve been taking; I’ve expressed this to my doc, and they agree it’s time to reassess my treatment plan. Unfortunately, fate seems to have other plans, and I need to continue with medication for now.

Breaking Free from Societal Expectations—A realization I’ve had recently is that everyone is running on their own schedule. I tried keeping pace with others by participating in group activities, like running races, but it’s no longer needed. It dawned on me that much of what we worry about is actually self-created, a result of seeking societal approval and acceptance

To avoid being labeled or ignored by others, I’ve come to realize that this is often our own doing. We create these expectations in our minds to get acceptance from society. Why should one give a damn when trying to achieve acceptance and accomplishments? I’m still trying to find clarity on things that I’m not sure about.

Embracing the “New Normal”—I’ve come to accept that being different is okay. In fact, it’s becoming increasingly normal in today’s time. I think embracing our uniqueness is more important than trying to fit into societal norms

A New Chapter

I’ve recently resigned from my job due to a toxic work environment. My boss was micromanaging and pointing out others instead of being a leader. I’m planning to take a sabbatical now and focus on getting some clarity about myself. I’ll try to blog more frequently, sharing my experiences and insights with you.

I want to make it clear that I’m not complaining about the situation or blaming others for my circumstances. It’s actually quite cowardly to do so. Instead, I’ve come to realize what kind of environment isn’t good for me, and that’s a valuable lesson in itself. Despite trying to reach management and doing everything in my power, it ultimately proved to be a futile effort.

I’m grateful for the experience, though – it’s helped me understand what I want and don’t want in life. Even though it was a waste of time and effort, it was worth it for the insight I gained.

Thank You! To those who have been reading this blog lately, thank you for your support and understanding. To others who don’t give a damn or give up easily, I say: keep moving forward. You never know what might happen next.

Arigato